Life is one big multidimensional balancing act, most of which goes on without conscious thought. Everything necessary for a healthy, happy life must be dealt with in moderation, lest the imbalances lead to problems.
One axis of this massive balancing act connects the opposing forces of hesitation and prematurity. Combine a significant leaning toward hesitation with another axis biased toward abstraction, and you get a tendency to avoid action before understanding. Throw in a bimodal distribution along the axis of confidence, and you get significantly divergent behavior based on comfort level.
All of this is my way of saying that I strive to understand things fully, ensure consistency, and maximize benefit to everyone, but it can all be subjugated by uncertainty. Ambiguity, flexibility, and any resulting uncertainty often yield paralysis.
This is the enemy. As is so often the case with strong attributes, one side is a strength, while the other causes problems. It all comes back to balance; in this case, balancing negative and positive uncertainty. Just as the driver must take care in observing obstacles too intently, one must avoid steering toward prominent obstacles in life.What's the relevance? So far this semester, I have been tripped up by a combination of small stumbling blocks of uncertainty (Intended outcome of initial research), combined with task timing collisions, and the resulting fear of negative outcomes/evaluations.
How to fix this: I need to schedule regular times to be at TWC and focused on completing objectives. Once I sink my teeth into a problem, I will have difficulty putting it down. To reach that point with research (rather than configuration of and acclimation to a Linux environment that has occupied so much of my time) I need to be more confident in asking questions and getting the transitional help I need, as well as continuing guidance.
Next steps: Solidifying lines of communication, identifying priorities, and digging in.
